Audition rotation season is upon us, as is the upcoming interview and match process. It's daunting to consider the probabilities of both Aaron and I matching into our chosen prospective fields at the programs in which we're most interested. The outlook appears even more bleak as we continue to be informed of additional closings of programs in the highly competitive field of Otolaryngology, which Aaron is pursuing.
Luckily, as children of God, Aaron and I don't have to rely on statistical norms.
God has strongly impressed upon my heart, and my mother's, recently, that we need to begin diligently seeking Him in prayer for His perfect will to come to fruition in this situation. I composed a list of specific prayer requests, which I will share at a later date, and have been humbled by our prayer team's eager response to join us in this journey.
After sleeplessly tossing and turning last night, I opened the YouVersion Bible app on my phone and began a new devotional focused on faith through Elisha's story. I knew God was speaking directly to me as I read the first passage and its interpretation.
"So he departed thence, and found Elisha the son of Shaphat, who was plowing with twelve yoke of oxen before him, and he with the twelfth: and Elijah passed by him, and cast his mantle upon him. And he (Elisha) left the oxen, and ran after Elijah, and said, "Let me, I pray thee, kiss my father and mother, and then I will follow thee."
It's not until you truly ponder this exchange that you begin to realize what a ridiculous leap of faith Elisha displayed. I can't imagine sitting with a patient, being interrupted by a crazy invitation to just drop everything in my life and follow God on an unknown and unfamiliar journey...and
immediately leaving my entire life behind at that moment's notice. I'm sure the patient would not be too thrilled. And, if I were Elisha, I would have been asking for Elijah's credentials.
Ladies, I highly doubt we could leave our families, let alone our purses, at the drop of a hat and blindly trust God's request to uproot our lives. But Elisha's heart is exactly the heart I am praying for God to mold mine to be over the next few months. And his childlike, unquestioning faith in God's plan for our lives.
Am I truly, honestly praying for God's perfect will, or am I (not so) secretly praying for my vision of what that is? Will I joyously celebrate, immediately, upon learning of our future, or will I be upset that it is not as I imagined?
God has so much preparation to do in my heart over the next several months. For this I will pray, that I will follow Him blindly, eagerly, into what He has laid before me.
What is He trying to prepare your heart for, and will you follow him with reckless abandon as Elisha did?